BACK ON SOME REAL SHIT...

It's been a minute since I spoke my mind, and today felt like one of those days where no matter what I did I just kind of felt lonely... even being around people if that makes sense? As most know I am currently " sans " a better half, so I've been spending a lot of time in the streets and out in the " scene " and so far its been pretty fun and VERY TIRING... My stock is up due to a significant drop in weight due to some good ol' fashioned exercise, but... Sometimes I cant seem to shake the feeling that no matter what I do or where I am, I just feel like somethings missing... I guess its natural considering for the better part of 4 years I was domesticated to say the least... And believe it or not, I was happy... It's funny though... I had some random conversation at lunch the other day with this Russian baker cat, weird I know... But he was asking my advice on a friend he had that was going through some relationship trouble, and how he should go about telling his boy how he felt about his situation, and for the first time I was completely stumped... I had nothing to say... This dude hit my current situation on the head with a perspective I had not even considered approaching, and I was bugging because I never even brought up being in a relationship... Which brings me to going out... I'm gonna start laying back on the party tip and being more selective about when and where I go, because I'm not a young buck anymore and I still got a ways to go... Basically the type of dude I am, and the places I go, to most don't seem to fit... I'm a hip hop dude thru and thru, but since the type of girl I'm attracted to doesn't frequent those spots, I find myself in the " hipster " circle scratching my head... Like the old saying goes " You can't have your cake and eat it too..." I find that to be more true than you think, because if I could, I'm sure I would be very far off the radar and completely out of the so called " scene " and for the record... ELECTRO SUCKS!!! all you new rave homos need to go listen to some muthafucking M.O.P and get off that bullshit!!! This is solely my opinion though and has no bearing on any of the cats I know that like that wack shit... I will give them this... There is always smoking hot girls at those spots, and I'm sure you will catch me up in there with a shot of tequila in one hand and a middle finger waving on the other... So if you are in a decent relationship, enjoy it... Trust me its a jungle out there and the music sucks... Peace